Thursday, July 9, 2009

Silence is Golden

I've noticed that I've changed in the last year. Especially in the past 4 months or so I've become a lot calmer and quieter. I don't talk as much when I'm with others. I'm more content to just listen and observe, really only getting actively involved when something is of particular interest to me. I'm also more content to just stay home and enjoy the peace and quiet of relative solitude.

For the past month or so I've been a little worried about this quietness I've taken on. Mostly I've been concerned because I noticed that the silence isn't just my outward behavior, but my mind itself has become so much quieter. It's like there used to be 10 voices in there, conscious and subconscious alike, all talking at once. Now I feel like there's just one. Only me. I was worried that maybe I've repressed stuff and maybe I've now moved all the other voices into my unconscious, which would totally not be healthy.

I now wonder though if this quiet is from my yoga asana, pranayama and meditation practice. Maybe it's all managed to help still the torrent. Maybe I'm just adjusting to being alone in my head. Maybe it's a good thing.

You think?

3 comments:

  1. I think it's because you know that there's a higher purpose in everything we do and yoga made you become a self-realised person as well. don't worry about it not being healthy, i just think that you have suppressed those thoughts because they're not really relevant at all(hehehe). I hope i made sense. I would like to share this thought from B.G. and I hope that this can help you not to worry about what you're feeling right now. :) "A person is said to have achieved yoga, the union with the Self, when the perfectly disciplined mind gets freedom from all desires, and becomes absorbed in the Self alone."

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  2. Hey you, no more bees buzzing? ;-)

    I think the calm came when you started your TT or just about after, so I'm guessing that YT has positively impacted your state of mind.

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  3. Thanks for the support, Liz. I think I've still got a long way to go before achieving that yoga though. For one thing, I'm now craving Vegemite so I'm still affected by desires.

    Hey, Mel! Nope, the bees are all gone. :) It's great here. My body and mind feel soooo good.

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